Frustrating day ...

This post would go great with a nice Chianti!

(LOL ... I couldn't resist!)

Anway, we are still here with no promise of a trip to the labor and delivery ward of the hospital any time soon. I am so effing frustrated. We went through the same B.S. with Bella. Bad cervix gets me slapped on bed rest ... only for child to be delivered at 38 weeks.

When I was in the office with Bella at 37 weeks, my OB asked if I'd ever had cervical surgery. Long story short, I had a L.E.E.P. in 2001 that left a ring of scar tissue in the cervical os. While the cervix effaced, it could only dilate to a certain point thanks to said scar tissue ring. The OB felt it during the exam and broke it. Within a week, I was holding Bella in my arms.

Well, at today's appointment, after my OB told me that my cervix hadn't changed at all, I asked him if there was a chance that the scar tissue ring had reformed in the os. He felt again and was like, "yeah .. it's hanging on by a thread." I was like, "Can you break it?!?" and he effing refused ... he even chuckled at my husband and told us to go home and have sex.

W.T.F.?!?!?!

We're 36 weeks along, we've had celestone shots, and have been on alert since freaking July 24th! I am huge, uncomfortable, and ready for the pregnancy to be over. I want the door flung open and the eviction notice rendered. If I could reach the os, I'd break the ring myself. I'm tired, depressed, and ready to just go into labor already. And his answer is to go home and have sex? Have sex. Honestly! I'm the size of a house ... I've never felt LESS like having sex in my life. How on earth are we supposed to manage that anyway with me being 168 pounds and round as a beach ball? We can't concentrate on sex anyway because I'm body conscious and Anna is always bouncing around when I lay down. I think the hubby is turned off by the thought of possibly poking her in the head. (I know that he won't, but you know how men are ...)

I think that I am the only person around that gets prepartum instead of postpartum depression.
I'm ready to do the Nature Nazi thing and buy some black cohosh and some Castor Oil!

At least my yard looks freaking immaculate, the house is tidy, and the play room is 99% organized.

I am also getting to watch some old favorite DVDs being here alone during the day. I watched "Queen of the Damned" while posting and putting away laundry this morning. Now, I'm lying here watching "Hannibal." (I know it's sick, but the way Anthony Hopkins portrays Hannibal Lector makes the character sexy as hell!) I can't remember the last time I got to watch a movie that was free of animated characters and such. Don't get me wrong, I love Disney, but it really is nice to watch movies that aren't chock-full of sticky sweetness and value-teaching.

Oh well ... I've got a long day ahead of me tomorrow. I am trying to keep myself busy so that I'm not sulking about the size of my belly and the thumping within. I also want to have my "chores" done by tomorrow evening as there are some quality football games on. The Cocks take on the Wolfies of N.C. State and the Philadelphia Eagles play their final preseaon game, hosting the N.Y. Jets. Perhaps we'll grill some steaks and watch some football. I've been hankering for a big ol' salad, chock-full of tomatos, cucumbers, celery, and croutons, along with some hot, medium-rare steak tips, all smothered in thick Bleu Cheese dressing. Mmmmm .....

Have a great evening.

Thursday's To-Do List:
* Mop bathrooms and kitchen
* Finish the backyard
* Finish the "rock" garden
* Vaccum house
* Work on family website
* Work on school blog
* Work on Bella's party planning
* Clean car
* Dust ceiling fans
* Make bows for mail box (one Gator, one pink)

Before and Ater picks of the play room today ... Go me!:

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